I was a regular reader of Z Magazine for three years when I decided last year to end that ongoing agony that would arise every time I read any of your articles regarding
While we all know that nothing is black or white, that although all sides did atrocities (just as all sides did them in all wars), you lie not even pretending to do justice to all sides in what happened. Thereâ€™s always justification for all that Serbs did (otherwise, they just didnâ€™t do it!), and thereâ€™s constant demonization of all other sides â€“ not one right thing on their sides. Your comparison of Arkan with Naser Oric (whose name you are misspelling all the time because youâ€™re not getting it from original sources!) is ridiculous. Arkan, who put together hordes of criminals in
But then, thatâ€™s your scientific method: throw in all that comes in mind to dilute the subject. What does the Ustashaâ€™s (which to you is the same as Croats!) massacre of civilians â€“ Serbs and others â€“in Jasenovac, which nobody denies, have to do with Srebrenica? Are you saying that Jasenovac makes it okay for Srebrenica to happen? You had to pull in Jasenovac because you couldnâ€™t find any historical massacre that Bosniacks did to Serbs. This way you depicted Serbs as eternal victims, so what the heck if they from time to time kill some plane hijackers? You cite and call for a witness controversial General MacKenzie, who spent few months in Sarajevo in 1992, who built further his â€œreputationâ€ in Somalia, whose name was alleged to Sonjaâ€™s motel in Vogosce (camp for women who were repeatedly raped by Chetniks). You cite international observers from 13 years ago who were saying, to our disbelief, in the first days of shooting â€œthey didnâ€™t know who was doing itâ€ or â€œeverybodyâ€™s doing itâ€. Really?
Iâ€™ve been tempted many times to respond to you, but it hurt too much. While I can even understand reasons for all that happened in my country, I canâ€™t say that I understood reasons for which somebody not directly involved would be so hateful to one of the sides. Then it came to me: you are doing it purposely; I just canâ€™t believe how obvious you are to anybody who knows anything about that region. I previously declined the urge to say something because you donâ€™t care about the truth. But thirteen years after the war started, you didnâ€™t change a bit the poisonous way in which you â€œexplainâ€ what happened in Balkans. I can almost feel the breath of your hate on my skin, and I reminded myself of my obligation to tell the truth as a firsthand witness. I owe that to those who are not among us anymore because I was there. There are no facts that will change what youâ€™re saying publicly. In addition, thereâ€™s nothing that I can say to you that will not be returned against me: I must be biased because Iâ€™m one of the victims. The fact that you forget is that in
I left Sarajevo when the first humanitarian aid landed, when my family was already out of food, when my father-in-law (Serb) got arrested by Chetniks for helping Muslims, when my mother (non-practicing Muslim) got forced by Serbs to leave her home at Ilidza, just before my brother and all male members of my family got put in Croat camps near Capljina. I left Sarajevo with 6-year and 2-year sons in July of 1992 believing that we would be back in September because, was I naÃ¯ve(!), war is something that happens to others, not to us. I left
The damage you are doing to this magazine is irreparable, however. I came to doubt seriously everything I read there because if the editor didnâ€™t make an effort to get the truth from more than one author about the things I knew about, I wondered what else was skewed or misrepresented. Z Magazine lost credibility with me and I didnâ€™t renew my 3-year old subscription. I even once read a piece by Chomsky – who was my idol in the field of human rights and my teacher in linguistics, since my student years in Sarajevo – in which Hermanâ€™s influence on Balkan issues was more than evident. That was a fist in my stomach. What is wrong with the world? With all the testimonies, journalists, video recordings, discovered secret documents, plans, meetingsâ€¦ is it all just Muslim paranoia happening in
However, after a long time, last night I thought I may see what Znet says about 10 years after Srebrenica. They may want to correct injustice after so many years. And then I saw your name. I really feel sick since last night. I canâ€™t tell you how upset I am. You are raping us all again and again. Shame is something that decent people feel when they hurt others. That is what I wish to you. I donâ€™t wish you to ever live or witness horrors or war. I wish you to know the pain you instigate in all of us by spreading hate and lies.
And please, do yourself a favor: donâ€™t even try to guess my nationality.